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jamila and lisa.
Jam(ila) Fong Hee. A highly peculiar fourteen year old female who believes dreams come true. When she becomes all grown up, she shall become a psychiatrist.^^
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♥ lisa liu. a thirteen year young girl who has given up on hope because it just hurts too much when you're let down.
20. this is who i have become
Tuesday, October 27, 2009 7:48 PM
i don't think we have been blogging properly much because of our yearly exams which start basically like tomorrow. i have a maths textbook in my lap, i was staring at it intensely, pen and paper by my side. but my head was in another place. what i saw on that math textbook page, meant nothing to me. not at this time.
i can't concentrate, and as i said my head is in another place. my mind has drifted somewhere strange. to be honest, right now i feel like a tonne of boulders have been thrown on my head. somewhat i'm finally feeling angry and pissed, after keeping it for so long. it just builds up and builds up, until you basically explode.
things happen to be going at a really fast pace, zooming right past my eyes. and as every minute ticks by things get more complicated and more stranger. i wish for so many things such as having the courage to tell someone something i have kept for so long, and something i really want to tell them. i hate how you have to plan what to do in each situation, how someone will react. and the more i think about it, the more it hurts.
i wished that maybe if life wasn't such a complicated labyrinth, then maybe for once i would be going in the right direction. not round and round in circles that begin and stop no where. i wish that i could just cry my eyes out without waking up in the morning with an instant giveaway. maybe this is just one of those phases that all teenagers go through, i have no idea.
but every bad thing thats happened to me recently is just screaming itself in front of my eyes. i wish i could just get away from it, but it's too close even though it seems so far away. lost for words. speechless. this is who i have become.
i think i just went on and on, and i dont give if it doesnt make sense. not now anyway. that's simply all i had to say. goodnight.
lisa x
